Video Blog Starting June 10th

Hey everyone,on June 10th I will start a new video blog about helping self injury.This hopefully can help you more.So be sure to look out for my first video blog on June 10th! Also here is the link to my channel:  http://www.youtube.com/helpfulguy328

Covering It All Up

(NO I'm not "pro-self injury I just want to help for those who can't find out how to cover up their scars or bruises etc.)Well summer is coming around the corner and this is my first summer with the scars and the bruises so I think this is gonna suck.But for all those who need tips I think I can help:

-Stay inside(if you can cause i know the pressure to go to the beach is very high and outside)

-Wear hoodies NOT longsleeves unless its snowing or raining or bad weather 

-If you are forced outside and people see your scars just say one of the many excuses you may or may not have used in the past..for example,"Oh a cat scratched me,ya really bad it sucks",or if the cat excuse doesn't work out,"Oh ya I fell in a rose bush and got really scratched up",and another example is,"Well a used a hair brush and just was really itchy"...

-BUT if you want to be honest(which works out better a lot of the time) just say you USED to have a depression problem but your fine/better/OK/happier now.

 Hope this helps..have a good weekend and try to find solutions and help for your self injury,and remember I care for you and about plus you NEED to know,your not a bad person for doing this or being the way you are,your just YOU and thats all that matters,and if someone doesn't like YOU being YOU than their not important to you!

Express Your Pain

Alot of parents or others that are trying to help usually say to supress or get rid of your pain and screaming emotion,well that's not right.Supressing or shoving it back inside you IS WRONG.Express yourself,not through self-injury,but through other techniques such as:

1.Draw or sketch or paint or just scribble,anything you want,show your pain through this like draw an entire black scene where there is only one person or draw your pain in words.

2.(My personal favorite and it does work)Writing poetry or stories,write about your expierences and all of those angry and depressing emotions you have,and also know poetry doesn't have to rhyme and when it doesn't thats called Free Verse Poetry.

3.Now i know what i said in my last post about not listening to dark music and metal and stuff like that BUT that is to calm down,when your not totally worked up then listen to your favorite screamo,sad,or rock bands..

*Distract Yourself*

Okay here is an awesome tip that I find to work;

*Distract Yourself*

1.Excercise which will focus you into excercising and not cutting/burning/etc.

2.Talk to a friend or hang out with them,just try not to talk about self injury because REMEMBER the objective is to focus on other things that aren't self injury

3.Watch TV or play video games,now just make sure their isn't alot of blood in what your watching or playing or anything that features self-injury

4.Listen to music,like calm music or happier music then the songs about death and suicide and self-injury or any other dark subjects(if you don't have any of that then just look on youtube or pandora.com for music)

Claiming to Stop and The 12 Steps

I know many of us want to stop and i know ALOT have said they did and re-started in a short amount of time just after that.Cutting or any type of self-injury is an addiction if it goes far enough..

So I found something that is used for alcoholics but it can also be used for any other type of addiction so here are the well known 12 Steps:

 

• Step 1 - We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable
• Step 2 - Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity
• Step 3 - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a greater power as we understood this greater power
• Step 4 - Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves
• Step 5 - Admitted to this Greater Power, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs
• Step 6 - Were entirely ready to have the greater power remove all these defects of character
• Step 7 - Humbly asked this greater power to remove our shortcomings
• Step 8 - Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all
• Step 9 - Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others
• Step 10 - Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it
• Step 11 - Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with  the greater power as we understood the greater power, praying only for knowledge of greater power will for us and the power to carry that out
• Step 12 - Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs

A Little Secret by chris h.

He stands there
With his arms never to bear

He waits for someone to help
All is wanted is self help

This boy was good
But now he is just misunderstood 

He lied about stopping 
All the blood is still dropping

Twice,he attempted suicide
But yet no-one is by his side

His eyes are black as coal
As if he has no soul

Whenever asked if it still persists
He says no,but there is always that twist

He can't stand hiding 
But inside he is still deciding 

He loves to be happy
But now he always feels just unhappy

Someone tried to stop it
He cared,but not enough

He drifts away
Nothing more to say

That little boy waits for a TRUE friend
Someone who can actually comprehend 

He lusts for hope
As if God would throw him a rope

Tears fall endlessly out of his eyes 
As his spirit slowly dies..............

by,chris h.

One of the most important tips you HAVE to know

Suicide is NOT the answer to self injury or any problem! For some you want out of that situation but suicide will hurt all those around you plus once your dead..your dead.Its not going back and fixing it,its permanent which ISNT GOOD.If you are thinking suicidal thoughts or attempting it,please do not just read this,get professional help or consult a pastor or a pyschiatrist or your parents or if they are the problem consult a friends parents!

Suggestion 4 U

Express your feelings in poems and writing,they can be whatever you want them to be!Ryhme or no ryhme they are still your writing or poem.It can easily distract you from that urge and that feeling of needing it.For example here is one of mine:

 Those little areas of harm

Turn into your only charm

I thought a couple would only be
As long as the world couldn't see

I laugh at the accusation of harming
But yet somewhere inside it is quite alarming

People around me stare 
But in return,i just simply glare

What happens now is my choice
Nothing but the smallest rejoice

Do i die 
Or wallow from the inside?

A question this severe must have an answer
Because all it does,is spread like a cancer

Help me i say
But nothing more this day

Until my tears fall for the last 
I wait in this place of shattered glass

by,chris h.

Tips #1-5

1.Think of a happy memory in your life(I know there is one even though it may not seem like it right now).For example mine is my first girlfriend,even though we broke up a year later it is still nice to think of our smiles on that first date.

2.Breathe deeply and focus on something other than self injury

*3.One of the most important is to,IGNORE all of those negative comments from people about your scars or your style,they don't know anything and aren't the people you should be with..

4.Find people who care,yes,there is people who are out there who really do! I care about you even though I don't know you and my email is: ferrarilover328@gmail.com,feel free to email me anytime

5.If you feel the urge to cut slap a rubber band against your wrist or talk to someone who cares or focus on something else!

The Story

Hello everyone,hope your doing well and alright.Well I think this blog should start off with my story and later on to the tips that are getting me through this journey..

My name is Chris H. and this is my story:

 On October 13th 2008 I was in my bedroom reading a book while listening to some music.My parents are fighting and yelling which I can hear through my headphones(this isn't the first time they have fought and yelled).I feel overwhelmed and really just..alone.I went into my kitchen and got a small but sharp blade.I went back into my bedroom and put my ipod back on and turned on a pretty good song,Broken by Seether and Amy Lee.I had no idea what I was doing and no idea how to cut or not cut or just anything about it.I got the blade and just made large indents in my arm and wrist,no blood.

Over the next coming weeks I kept making those indents and wore hoodies and long sleeves but also short sleeves(my parents didn't even notice my arms.Four weeks after that I drew blood...it was,for me,one of the best feelings i had felt in a long time.And after that day I always drew blood and went deeper and deeper.On New Years Eve my sister sees my arms and asks me what the hell happened,I reply.."The cat scratched me",and she bought into it.

Then January comes around and people start getting curious on why I'm wearing long sleeves and start asking me to pull up my sleeves.I usually replied with a,"F*ck you" or "None of your buisness".Then a girl in my class pulled up sleeves and looked in awe at the hundreds of scars that inflamed both of my arms..She obviously told people because this spread like wildfire and soon most of the school knew I cut myself.People now picked on me and called me various names such as:emo,goth,stupid cutter,cutter,slicer,sadistic lunitic,insane,messed up,emo cutter,and even a 5th grader screamed at me saying "HEY CUTTER STOP SLICING YOUR WRISTS!".I couldn't bare it and even school was worse than my home now.

March 10th 2009,I think about a life without my pain,without cutting,and without being with everyone who hates me.My solution,suicide.That day I planned and schemed on how I was goingto do it and when and where.I came up with the plan,with slicing both wrists open and bleeding out..That night I was going to do it.The suicide letter was written and everything ready for it...I took a steak knife and was digging into my skin...but I broke down in tears and couldn't do it....The day after I came to school and had a smile on my face and promised I would never cut or attempt suicide every again

Three weeks later a kid asks me if I am still a gay cutter who is a fake and a group of kids was talking about how I am really stupid and drugged up.That day,I relapsed.I went over to CVS and had a couple bucks and bought a ten pack of single edge razors and ran into the school bathroom and cut my arm up.While I was doing that I didn't realize what time it was and skipped church..

April 11th 2009,I hear my parents fighting and scream back at them,they act as if I am invisible.I attempt suicide yet once more.And yet again I couldn't go through with it.That week was spring break and the next day was Easter.My spring break was spent in Ohio at my grandma's home,which was freezing and old.It was the worst Spring Break I have ever had,not only did I shake continously,but I threw up a couple times because I was so nervous and so deprieved of my razors..

Now today May 8th I have now NOT cut for two weeks.I am getting better and feeling healthier.Every day I want to go back and cut more and more but I must be strong...